This Is Just So Emotional. I Love You Mom :'[

Ya Allah, i'm begging you to help me while i'm in a lost. 

While i'm having "The Feeling" that i hate to feel!

The feeling of alone. And it's a bad feeling!
I miss my mom, SO BAD! Can i ask you? What kind of heartless human being who dare to separate the bonding between a daughter from her mom. Though she got to see her mom once a while, but it's different.

When you are living with your mom, you have your mom besides you, you'll always feel loved and happy.

Then, my siblings are just still little, i cry when i see them missing their moms too. I know the feeling deep down inside their heart.

When that most important person in your life, gone... It feels so damn hurt!

I hate to brag about this issues. I hate it! 

But there's come a a point when i just need to express it in other way instead of crying. 

Dear god, if you will ever listen to my pray, could you guarantee me for a better life in the future?

Not that my current life sucks, i just missed the love from a mother. 

As i grow up, i realise, i need that. I need that kind of support and loves. When i started know that, she's so far away, and you barely see her, "The Feeling" started to come out. Feeling of depression i guess.

I dont know, its hard to tell. 

In the middle of creating this post, i'm watching Kimora Life In The Fab Lane.

Believe it or not, Kimora has the similarities with my mom somehow. 

Such a loveable mom, care enough for her children, so committed with her work, not forget to mention she's pretty! So yeahhh, that makes me miss my mom more!




I AM BEING SUPER HONEST IN THIS POST. 
GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FACE ALL OF THESE SHIZZ
PLEASE BRING ME BACK TO MY MAMA :'[